it fell apart when the winds pulled it down
on the ground where the sun drove the colors deep
in the summer heat, the colors seem to drown"
i love words <3 p="">
gusts of winds,
warm sun
and smoothies
homemade smoothies
with oats and blueberries
and vanana, and strawberries
things that make even stressful doctor visits
seem suddenly like small road bumps
insignificant, acceptable,
an "eh it happens"
kind of tale
rather than mood defining ones
i am not unfortunate--not yet
i dont think i have been in a while
and that makes me really happy
i've been, over and over,
blessed, blessed, and overly
ridiculously
blessed
i am blessed to have friends to love
and that love me--who adventure
as well as mishap with me
i am blessed to have coworkers
i can sit in an office with
three of us a mess
crying over one of us leaving
an awkward, and heartwarming acknowledgement
that we fearlessly allowed
to let someone touch our souls
share our space
where only our own hearts
beat before
i know this may just seem like
a jumble of words and memories to anyone else
but i wanted somewhere to write
about the iced vanilla chai i had the other week
the french toast life tricked me into making this morning
the yummy lunch i enjoyed with the just-right temperature tea
the dinner i have planned on wednesday
the friends ive caught up with since then
the nice, quiet way
warm sunlight
fills a room
and makes it summer
this morning i also got to enjoy my tea
with sarah kay's company
and stories of her childhood
and the words that keep it alive < 3
i dont think ill ever actually reach a point
with this particular post
just wanted to vent
my appreciations
for a family that loves me
friends who are like family
family like friends
and a consistent peace
over all the unknowns and unpredictables
for music that makes life
that much more livable
and days that can finally
allowed just to be
summer
and not just another
hurdle of to do lists
and failures
maybe
i can be okay
exactly as i am
and maybe
as i am
i am already
consistently
currently
moving forward
even if it isnt
at the grueling
self-punishing pace
i think it should be
i think to sit here
and enjoy
and verbalize
my joy
in the life
ive been given
is a means
of moving
forward
too
soul is singing
relieved < 3 ,
hannah
"But you pulled up the colors with a simple tune
You breathed a song and you dusted off the sand
You put the pieces on your sleeve, you gave my heart to me
It looked so pretty that I fell upon my knees
And from the ground I saw your face
You spoke of love and you sang of grace
But come the night when the light is gone
Its in the dark that my deeds are done
What I've done in darkness, I must turn away
This mended heart was meant for so much more
Though the wind is telling me that it's ok
I'll stand my ground till I hear the kingdom come
So I will fight to keep the fire burning in the night
For I found words to keep me still
And though I'm prone to go and make the same mistakes
I hear your voice calling out my name
I'll fight to keep the fire burning in the night "
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