incoherent

i feel like there's a ton of words piling up
but i have no idea how to use them
or what they even are.

i need to get out of pretend okay.
and pretend not-okay.

but if i do, then
i don't know where or what
i'd be left with

...today i made pineapple grilled chicken teriyaki burgers for dinner < 3 .
it was quite the disaster.
and makes me almost never wanna
make up my own recipes on the spot
ever again.


i am very proud of myself tho--
cuz i packed the leftovers by converting it into a salad
for tomorrow for lunch =]

..i think above a lot of things
i would hate to eat,
for the sole reason
of eating to survive.

i would love to enjoy
every meal.
and always
have people
to share and
enjoy it with.

i almost can't wait to make dinner next week already =].

one kitchen disaster after another,
hannah