dont

...leave me

as put together

as you found me

so that

i can lock the door

behind you

turn the lights off

in my room

and

cry"

some friends and i finally got a chance to get together

and it was an amazing three days of adventure

so much so,

that i couldn't believe

it could happen so naturally

and feel so at home

after so long

that i could find myself

so easily

after so long

of putting on so many other roles

that i could relive that part of me

and be reminded that it was part of the present

and not the past

i could just be getting too old, already

or maybe i'm just more of a pansy, the good kind,

the..allowed to feel kind

when it comes to my friends

but when they left

it was incredibly lonely

all at once

and all together

it shook my insides enough

that my outside came close to following suit

that pain seemed to reverberate

a loneliness i was only partially aware

id been avoiding for so long

i missed them dearly

less than a minute after they were gone

four days of keeping a too-emo-for-the-public post

unposted later

i've decided

how blessed i must be

to have friends

i can cry over

and miss

with all my heart

and love

with even more

than my heart

can apparently

handle

thank you for everything < 3

thank you for You

thank you for all of you

im so excited

to keep living this life

with all of you in it =]