it's time to stand up but everyone's sitting...

support raising is hard...
i first got introduced to the idea of the trip not happening on saturday
and it got me thinking i guess..like..
how much im still compartmentalizing aspects of my lifestyle
that i could just keep pushing this aside
instead of intertwining it with everything else

and also makes me think that...
support raising isn't for me
it's for Him, to honor
and bring glory to that
step of faith
that comes with asking for help
that comes with praying
for potential miracles

..

$2,850 to go..
in two weeks

and already..God's been amazing

i mentioned it to a really really close friend
just..frantic really..
but she wasn't even one of the people it even crossed my mind to send a letter to
cuz she lives in canada so its pretty far..
and also i know she hadn't had good experience with religion before
but, right away she was like
"omgsh--let me send you something!
i'll do it tomorrow for sure! "
and apologized she couldn't send much
but really?
amount doesn't matter--
just the feeling of someone -wanting- to be there and help you
that's amazing on its own =]

....
that and
the two late christmas present dresses,
hat, keychain, book,
and check for three hundred dollars for missions o___x
yeah--that was pretty amazing too @__@ <3 <3 <3

people
are kind of amazing
God is kinda
more than incredible

i had another friend tell me
he'd love to support me--
but only after i went to lunch with him
then i could tell him about what he was supporting me in then
...
seriously?
potential support--AND free fries
i think im okay with that <3


a had a good time catching up with old friends
as i was trying to ask them about support letter stuff
and overall got to be reminded of what a blessing these people are
no matter how present or not they were or had been in my life

im relieved cuz michelle said she'd help me with the dinner thing on monday...
and eff i need the help @@
it was done on an impulse
and im pretty much trying to keep myself from backing out of it as we speak

mm
i think im finally sleepy
or more like
i have been <3

"Give praise to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ.
He has blessed us with every spiritual blessing.
Those blessings come from the heavenly world.
They belong to us because we belong to Christ."-Ephesians 1:3