1 john 4:18

i always get scared when these things happen.

or are gonna happen, are about to, or in the process of.
these things meaning...big things
these things meaning...growth (or rather, the need for it)
transitions
change

then i remember this verse
and my first thought is..
that means..no fear right?
that..no, i can't be scared

but i think..that's a really limited black and white view too
i cant just trap myself into being something im not
especially if it means feeling a certain way
that i may not necessarily feel either

i think..maybe im scared
but even though i am..
it's okay to be

and it goes back to that one quote
where it isn't about if you're scared or not
as much as it is..if you remember that there's something
more important than that fear that you're feeling

and in this case, it would be faith
faith is more important
than change, or even growth
faith that whether i understand what's happening or not
or am uneasy about what's about to happen or not

that there is something greater
greater than my own worries
greater than my own fears
with love that will fulfill
in my place
the promises, and healing
that i could never fulfill
or heal myself
on my own

thank you, God
for taking care of my family

thank you, God
for the hope, and the faith
that no matter what
that You're also
taking care
of me