closing doors

Lyin' next to you
Wishing I could disappear
Let you fall asleep
And vanish out into thin air

It's the elephant in the room
And we pretend that we don't see it.
It's the avalanche that looms above our heads.
And we don't believe it.

Tryin' to be perfect
Tryin' not to let you down...
Honesty is honestly the hardest thing for me right now

while the floors underneath our feet are crumbling
The walls we built together tumblin'
I still stand here holdin' up the roof
Cause it's easier than telling the truth

we pretend
we pretend
we pretend

we look straight ahead
we look down
we look away
we're too afraid
to close our eyes
...or do anything but that

i want to be there for you
but i know im not the one to
i know he isn't either
or her, or them
or any of us

its out of my hands
..or have i stopped reaching?

my heart breaks
breaks
breaks
breaks
for you

i want everything to be okay
i want to promise you that
i want to do that much for you
i want to convince you
make you believe

..give you something
to believe in

im so scared
of the things i couldn't be
wish to be
might not be
hope to be
and always
at all the wrong times
am

with all of my selfish desire
i just want for you
to be okay

when right now
maybe what you need more
is to realize
just how much
you arent
...yet

but at the same time
already
are

Stop ignoring that our hearts are mourning
And let the rain come in.
Stop pretending that it's not ending
And let the end begin.

to open the doors
to open your heart
to a new
beginning

something
someone
the One
you can believe in

i love you.
and this is why
this is all
i can do