the sick

"Jesus heals."

Jesus went throughout Galilee, teaching in their synagogues, proclaiming the good news of the kingdom, and healing every disease and sickness among the people. News about Him spread all over Syria, and people brought to Him all who were ill with various diseases, those suffering severe pain, the demon-possessed, those having seizures, and the paralyzed; and He healed them. Large crowds from Galilee, the Decapolis, Jerusalem, Judea and the region across the Jordan followed Him. [Matthew 4:23-25]

-the Sick

good news
implies that it is both a positive
and foreign concept
to those listening
and are hearing
probably
for the first time
as we were meant to
..again and again.

the kingdom
is something much, much
bigger
than we could possibly
understand
it's something that reigns,
that lives
and is actively
..living
breathing
loving
existing.
as something
more real
than we allow ourselves
to comprehend

disease and sickness among the people
...we're all infected
our daily lives
our words, our actions
our hearts
are tainted
with the urge
not to love

about Him
news
about
Him
cuz it was never about us
because it was
never about
me
because we
and i
could never heal
what yours and my
fragile, dirty, hands
and scratched up
calloused palms
would only
hurt more
to touch
and try to keep
for ourselves
and as our own
gollum-like treasure
and not
for the sake
of saving another

people brought Him
ordinary people
like you and me
not just to who we felt like
not just to who "deserves" it
and away from those who "dont"
we brought Him
to all.

we are ill
this much we can't deny
even on our best days
when we try to forget
just. how. much.
we're deteriorating
the truth is
...the truths are
and some days
we just..
let them

with various diseases
pride. vanity. jealousy.
laziness. apathy.
fear.
we live our daily lives
harboring.
it could mean anything..
diseases of the soul
inhaling the polluted air
of a broken world
of selfish wants
and made up lies
..it can come in almost
any, and every, creative form
but don't let that change
in your mind
what you already know it to be
and what you already know
it couldn't possibly be

Truth.

suffering
implies they are in the present form
of actively, at this moment
suffering
in mid-tragedy
crisis, or breakdown
currently
being eaten away
by the things
that feed off
seemingly
unreachable
pain
we are
suffering
that's present-tense
that is
now
...and it is also
now
that He reaches us.

severe pain
...the kind of severity
and pungent depth
of which no words
could ever
do justice
to try
to describe

demon-possessed
cuz sometimes..that's really
the only way to put it
to make any sort of sense
of the kind of thoughts
that slither unconsciously
through the consciousness of our minds
the kind of dark
that is the blackest
of black
that just
stings
to the touch
and is overwhelmingly
blinding
to our already
limited sight

having seizures
reoccurring fits,
convulsions,
when your whole body
jolts in currents of shock
out of your control
hearts, overwhelmed
cut off from oxygen, or peace
struggling to
breathe
when the body
that once belonged to us
is captured
by force
by things that grasp
our mind
and hearts
and dont
let go

paralyzed
quiet beating
of heavy hearts
that yearn to come alive
limbs hanging
arms dead on either side
lungs that havent
for so. long.
felt the living inhale
of a running breath
face that's forgotten
the feeling of
the rush of cold air
against its cheeks
legs that ache
to sprint
to run
and leave
the dead weight
of the rest of me
the me thats...

paralyzed
unable to move
feeling stuck
where we are
our feet
glued,
sinking
to the rising
ground
and the horizon keeps
getting further and further
away from the span
of where our frozen fingertips
could ever
hope
to reach

paralyzed
...with fear.

He healed them.

He
healed
all of this.
He
healed
all of
you.
He
healed
all
...of me.

...I just keep forgetting that.

i want to stop living my life
forgetting that.

i want to gather
in large crowds
of once broken
now complete
walking,
breathing,
living,
loving,
saved
people

i want to start running forwards
and not away

i want to stop getting lost
in the paths i wander
and circle
within
myself,
pursuing
only
myself

...i want to pursue
and follow Him.