i miss the people i know

and the ones who know me.

its like craving some sort of comfort food or meal
that you know always cheers you up, and just..feels right.

it's like the feeling of being completely content, just as you are
and being confident that you know who you are
and having confidence even amidst the things
you don't yet know

one shallow feeling of satisfaction
and temporary purpose
will follow one another

until i finally learn to seek
what it is my heart really needs

..im still confident
ill find my way back
but for now i want to let my heart
wander to its content--or rather
discontent

till it knows, sees firsthand
and experiences itself
that amidst all the successes
hurdles leaped,
and mountains climbed

that those accomplishes will be hollow victories
in a race that cant be won

i want to stop trying to be
confident in me

and my efforts
my will
my capabilities
and dreams


id rather
have the confidence
that lasts

...in Him.