thought exhales

..is it true?

are most my friends i hang out with usually..guys?


what do boundaries mean to me
is this one-sided?
am i really as self-aware as i think i am?

..or just selfish, manipulative, a people-pleaser, and a liar?

ahem.
so far every morning ive taken a different
hair tie from my mom's bathroom
and at the end of the day when i take it off,
instead of putting it back i take it off before bed
and put it on their nightstand.
i wonder if by the end of this trip,
ill have successfully moved all her hair ties
from her bathroom sink
to her nightstand.

bwahh...
now that i think about it--
maybe my family actually really WOULD love the game catchphrase D:

in other news--turns out my mom avoids caffeinated teas too D:
its not allowed for my dad, but she avoids it just in case

i wonder
will i be healthy when i grow up..?

im not sure what one hour on a treadmill
actually equates to in running time

do i have the attention span to continuously go for an hour?

..truth is.
as soon as i found out it was
the popsicles that we usually ate--
i was excited to have an excuse to get you
to go back and share one with me again

sometimes i wonder
are you, or do you ever get
as bored as you think i am?

what does 'fun' even mean?

i miss michelle's laughing.
actually--i miss laughing
with michelle.

i also miss talking to yuki =[
i love that talking to nabi is still pick-up-able from where we left off
and i love that me and pri-pri can understand each other
with or without talking
and in the midst of long drawn out rants
about life's
long drawn out
rants

i. am. DEATHLY. afraid
of not getting these personal statements finished =/
i havent heard back...from anyone

other than ray, so far for the later drafts...

im scared that my trying to work ahead will be for nothing
if im unable to get people's feedback on time on it
...sometimes i wish i could just do things on my own
and i have to remind myself its a blessing
not to have to be
...just scary
at the times you feel like
or wonder
if you are

ZOEY IS ADORABLE.

i want one.
not any time soon though,
just to play with and make baked goods with

speaking of--
tomorrow is my late grandpa's bday
and sassy's, our puppy =]

i will make scones < 3 .