every day

if things work out
the way they're 'supposed' to

then i'd have women shelter volunteer..12pm-8:30 pm fridays
rehab drug treatment facility shift 6:30am-3:00pm the next day, sat & sun
sleep in day on monday, but crisis line shift 1pm-5pm
(followed by catalyst 7pm-9:30sh pm)
which leaves my tues-thurs
open to divide up the 15 hrs of work
for my newest part time marketing assistant job
(thankfully close/in davis)

rinse and repeat--
(hopefully im rinsing more than weekly,
if we're talking bout showers here)
and begin again on fridays

rest?

erm.
well...i'd have more time than my typical 8am-5pm on sundays?
hangouts on fridays would have to just be earlier/some sorta brunches...
um. id get to sleep in on mondays?
and in theory fridays...

i wouldnt be able to be out much anymore fridays,
which honestly makes me pretty sad...
not that i coulda done much at night anyway,
since my work is at 6:30 the next day

..it's still...do-able though?
and id still have time for evening calls w/ ray
and just last week i went out on a friday at 9?
the latest id be able to sleep is midnight on sat and fri =[
w/ ray on sat, that means id hafta sleep a lil earlier too..
but to be honest, i havent been able to sleep early for the 6:30 shifts
at all. anyway? not yet so far, at least...

id just need to make sure to be more responsible
about sleeping early starting on friday night
so even if i stay up a lil later on saturday
ill stll be able to live a lil bit the next day
plus id even still have the option of napping (hah)
on sunday if i wanted--or basically just resting sooner
i could read, i could watch a movie, i could hang out the way i didnt on friday
if ray wanted to he could even visit then instead

...i could quite possibly...even sabbath?

...ray said
"im confident that things will work out."

..that means a lot to me.
it means a lot for me to hear, from someone
who means a lot to me to begin with.

when i'm faced with changes
and things im unsure of
anxiety and doubt.

...to have someone be confident for me--
be confident in me. even when im finding it hard to
...means a lot

and i know i need to take that realization
and apply it to my relationship with God
and know that He knew
more than anyone
what big and small
ridiculous, important, random, or silly things
i would be getting myself into

...and He is the one who tells me
the most sincerely
"I am confident
that things will work out"

...and that
He will make sure of it. <3