i don't know what's to come

You make every part of me
Stand up and fight
To save the whole world
Turn what's dark into light

You make every part of me
Want to do more
To save the whole world
Be the one you adore

The more time that passes by
It all becomes much clearer why You are
Different from everyone

This world confuses me

But ever since the fuse in me has lit
I've wondered what I could do


It's the way You are

i journaled a bout this.
...i probably cried.

God is amazing.

I still have so much trouble understanding that.

"i don't know what's to come"

and i still have
so. much. trouble.
understanding that.

..being okay with that.

that i'm already
the one You adore.
that there is a Light
in a world as dark as this one.

Every dream in my head
Every word that I've read
Everything that I've thought
Thought but I should've said

All the things that I've done
All the races I've run
Comes to together in one
But I don't know yet, I don't know yet
I don't know what's to come

i want to do something, God.
i want to do something.

i want to praise You.
i want to run,
i want to stop running.
i want to fight,
and stop fighting.


what can i do?

because this time..
i really do want to do something
for You.

but at the same time i realize that even as i say this
i'm still too caught up
doing things
just for myself.

"i don't know what's to come"

and that scares me.

..but that's also what gives me the reason
to stand up again
and fight.

"You are different from everyone."

that should be enough reason.
who You are
is enough reason.

thank You for that < 3 .