i hate to break it to you

but I’m not drowning

There’s no one here [for you] to save

Who cares if you disagree?
you are not me
Who made you king of anything?
So you dare tell me who to be?
Who died and made you king of anything?

You sound so innocent,
all full of good intent
Swear you know best
But you expect me to jump
up on board with you
And ride off into your delusional sunset

I’m not the one who’s lost with no direction
But [it's like] you’ll never see
You’re so busy making maps with my name on them in all caps
You got the talking down,
...just not the listening

And who cares if you disagree?
You are not me
[i am not He]
Who made us king of anything?

So you dare tell me who to be?
Who died and made you king of anything?

All my life I’ve tried to make everybody happy
While I just hurt and hide
Waiting for someone to tell me--[but now] it’s my turn to decide

He cares, though they disagree
They are not me
They're not king of anything
Though they dare tell me who to be

...because He died
He is my King of everything

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it's not up to you
...it's not up to me

im not "king" of anything either
i cant save you
and pleasing you
...wont save me

i think i need to finally be okay
and not be so scared, or hopelessly hurt
over one person thinking im a bad friend
..because id be a bad friend
to abandon what i thought was right
to condone a behavior
that's been destructive to someone already, in the past
just because itd be easier to

i want to not care so much

about how to please others
and think more about
how to love
myself
to acknowledge the love
God has for me too

because my friends
should matter enough for me
to want to take care of myself too

"love thy neighbor as thyself"
didn't mean..spoil them because you can
..it meant, to love them as you want to be loved

and sometimes loving someone doesn't mean
giving them exactly what they want all the time
it means..to care more about them, than your own reputation
or what's easier and minimal effort for you

it means to love them
the way you want to be loved
and i want to be loved
enough
to be trusted
and given room
to grow

its what our hearts ask
all the time
and need the opportunity to
from others

"im asking you to believe in me."

..and believe it or not.
that's what im doing
by doing what im doing now too.

i want to believe
he can do better than this
i want to believe
He can do better
than me.

i want to believe
that the love
that saved me

can save him too.