broken

Lord God,

i'm being put face to face
with just how much i've put my hope
in myself
and wanted that hope
to remain in myself

and thought id be without hope
unless it was

of course i feel helpless
of course i feel scared
of course im insecure

there's nothing secure about me
to begin with
the only true security
i've ever found
or will ever experience
is in God

i cant help myself
because im human
im the one that needs saving
i wasn't meant to do it
all by myself

my abilities are limited, and weak
i will fall short
again
and again
and again

and i feel scared
because
i SHOULD be scared
if i let myself believe
for even one second--
and should be scared
for all the seconds
i already have--
that i will be the one to take my own fears away

there is nothing but fear in my own human heart
there will be nothing but fear
if i've left no room for understanding
that His perfect love succeeds
in the midst even of my failure
even amidst my greed

my selfishness
insecurity
brokenness
and pain

His perfect love
is not affected
by what my human hands
could possibly break
and what Satan's manipulative words
could try to convince

His perfect love
is more powerful
and will succeed
against it all

as long as i
let it in

...and even the times when i dont

its still in the process
of succeeding

God is winning
He's won back our lives
He's back our lives
as we speak

He's already won

our lives need to be
a celebration of it.