words

so i keep meaning to post a normal post, but always end up rambling off like I just did @@. images are easier than words. i dont feel like my words can..keep up. it feels like a scientist, or like a field observer. maybe like crocodile dundee, or those other people. anthropologists? starting off in the same place, some presumed natural habitat. then trying to keep up when they glance up like antelope thingies then take off on a sudden sprint. and they tumble and scramble, the words that is. trying to keep up with the images, and scribbling down what they can. glimpses of images, things that sort of make sense. assume on a lot of glances, cuz you cant really tell whats going on, and to try to make sense of it fully wouldn't...have enough ink in the world to explain.

and then sometimes they find them, settled in some random location again
and not knowing how they got there, you assume a random conclusion
of what it means
or what theyre trying to say

but whether it makes a little
or a lot of sense
the words still look up
with an exhasperated sigh under their scratched up safari hats
maybe brushing off some branches, or leaves
while they find themselves
once again
unfound
in some random patch of wilderness
unknown and familiar at the same time

and im sure on some days
particularly puzzling ones
without conclusions
or enlightening points
they think
maybe we're too old for this
or this doesn't even make any sense
what am i wasting my time
being written for?
over something that has no consideration
no -words- of its own
while the words themselves exhaust their resources
revisiting thesauruses sheepishly
as if rechecking a map
when they cant take not knowing where they are

in hopes no one sees them checking
and realizes their own amateurity
so they can hold any sort of dignity when they try to report back to everyone else
the things they saw
the things they heard
the things that really, honestly, existed
even if they dont anymore, or were only there for a second

and listeners already doubting them
when they make huge claims
in wonder and awe
over things
that fall short to be explained
and fall more rightly on making no sense
to exist
or have existed
or worse exists
but seems so ordinary
that it didnt seem worth
existing for
to begin with

...augh! i did it again X_X
**GIVES UP*
**Will tell you about my day later ; ;*