today i lost my purple marker =(

so there's the expression
"gripped with fear"

...and i dont think id ever thought much of it
but just now made me wonder if this is what it's like
to be "gripped" with an emotion

like..a suffocating feeling,
like being squeezed by an outside force
that's affecting
mostly your insides

and its even
a lil harder to move
on the outside


i dont know if its fear
or anxiety
or what

i just know
i can feel it
a "grip"

pressing
against my lungs,
and
around my heart

just when i thought there was an exhale
for the pressure to be released

came one
in a different
just as
if not more
encompassing direction

this time starting
from the pit of my stomach
and slowly spreading
throughout