Sunday, October 25, 2009

never let go

It's falling from the clouds
A strange and lovely sound
I hear it in the thunder and rain
It's ringing in the skies
Like cannons in the night
The music of the universe plays

You are holy great and mighty
The moon and the stars declare who You are
I'm so unworthy, but still You love me
Forever my heart will sing of how great You are

Beautiful and free
Song of Galaxies
It's reaching far beyond the milky way
Lets join in with the sound
C'mon let's sing it loud
As the music of the universe plays

All glory, honor, power is Yours amen
All glory, honor, power is Yours amen
All glory, honor, power is Yours forever
Amen

retreat was amazing.
people are amazing.

i want to promise to pray for my freshmen
and love on them as God has called us to love.
...but i realize how difficult that is
and this isn't just a cop out response
to shove disclaimer on my promises already
but just a reminder to myself
to realize the weight
of my own wishes of promises

so instead
i want to pray
..to..pray..
for my freshmen
i want to pray
to love on them
to be a source of
friendship and
support for them
to remember
most of all
that they are not
'my freshmen'
but God's

and that that's something
the identity of something
and someone's
that deserve
a lot of
respect
and time
and effort
and love

these are
God's people
God's daughters
my sisters
and brothers
in Christ



im really happy to have gotten the opportunity
to really connect more with women in epic
rather than just the everyday of entertaining or
making them feel welcome..but really, really
talking to them, sharing with them, hearing from them
getting to know them, and loving on who that is

girls in cru, friends who have just stuck around
really just make me feel connected to the movement as a whole
rather than just epic
got to catch up with elena, omgsh i love her
annie was pulled into ultimate ninja
and i got to spend more time talking to her this weekend and hanging out
lil things like saying hi and small talk
with allie and megan
and proposal stories
from desyre and another girl from my old bstudy

i feel..blessed, God
so blessed
to have such a community
and the chance to interact with
and kow who these people are

also got to have good fellowship with my brothers
who were super patient with me
especially gabe, alex (lol), matt wang..even josh scott
while playing basketball/getting taught how to haha
and conversations with matt ing and mike and this weekend,
even arend from cru. and brief interactions with keith
and other people
then theres also getting to catch up with will =]
haha and my new tumor/growth andy =D
yaay brothers

jeanine, stella, wendi. omgsh, wendi. and jill and mary
and steph and krissy and ashley
i got to really spend time and just fall even more in love
with who these girls are and can and will be
and...are...in my life
i feel so inspired by them
inspired to grow
and to connect

steph umamoto is so efficient haha
and stella's adorable
jeanine--still amazing. amazing. oh yeah--and uh. amazing.
jill shows so much love and care for the people around her
krissy's thoughtful, wise, gentle, and kind dern it
and she is a good appreciater of humor haha
i always love any time i get to spend, or interact with ashley
her questions make you think dern it
and shes super encouraging
i got to know tracy, and pa, and lucy
and got to spend some quality time with
vickie, elena, and brianna
all of whom im super excited to get to know more =]
(they were such good sports for the dress up thing!)

this weekend ive added new girls to pray for
pa, lucy, tracy, and..that one girl who was supposed to be my top bunk buddy
but always got up way too early for me to greet her good morning to her face from the beds


i got home
crawled into bed
and fell asleep
and napped for a good
almost three hours

..im really
happy
this weekend
to get a break
and BE happy


the stars were amazing
and shooting stars..
we saw two of them
but really at that moment
i couldn't think of anything
to possibly wish for

all i could or can think now
is that..God is good
and that yes, He loves me
this much
loves us both
loves us all

that He'd create
so much
that defines the beauty
of who He is

stars, curtains, racing up and down stairs
laughing, and talking
and really just..playing

im amazed at who He is
and the things He gives us
and that none of this
is of us
but is all
in Him
through Him
because of Him
and His love for us



"...i rejoice in this Divine Romance."



thank you, God
for everything < 3

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