rescuing handicapped children from a space shuttle disaster

i am
indestructible.

...or else.

fever.
slight headache--well its going away now.
still vaguely limping, but not as bad as last night
or this morning
where standing for too long--hurt.

effing kevin.

i really am enjoying car rides to and from church with him tho.
nice random time to catch up.
and keeps things in perspective
and something in my prayers
when im wondering
how the word of God sounds
to ears
other than my own
or to hearts
hurting
for different reasons
that i cant even
begin
to comprehend
in the way
God,
surely
does.


...i wish it wasn't so hard to ask for help.


or to admit to needing some.


or even company.

which i sometimes want,
even if it seems almost like
i complain too often about being in the state
that doesnt D:

im laying on the floor
with a blanket, tylenol, half a peanut butter sandwich
half bowl of soup, water bottle, my laptop, and some hw.

..its really, really cold D:

i still need to find a way to do laundry,
rest of my hw,
have self control NOT to hang out today,
enough discipline to catch up on reading
and sleep early tonight.

and all the little things.
that aren't really
so bad < 3
if you think about it.
=]

..yeah.
i want some company.
i want..your company.

i just need to..
convince myself,
that that's
..okay.

..right? = /

"hanging by a moment"
by lifehouse

I'm desperate for changing
Starving for truth
I'm closer to where I started
I'm chasing after You

I'm falling even more in love with You
Letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until You make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with You

Forgetting all I'm lacking
Completely incomplete
I'll take Your invitation
You take all of me now

I'm falling even more in love with You
Letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until You make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with You

I'm living for the only thing I know
I'm running and not quite sure where to go
And I don't know what I'm diving into
Just hanging by a moment here with You

There's nothing else to lose
There's nothing else to find
There's nothing in the world
That can change my mind

There is nothing else
There is nothing else
There is nothing else

I'm desperate for changing
I'm starving for truth
I'm closer to where I started
I'm chasing after You

I'm falling even more in love with You
Letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with You

I'm living for the only thing I know
I'm running and not quite sure where to go
And I don't know what I'm diving into
Just hanging by a moment here with You

Just hanging by a moment
Hanging by a moment
Hanging by a moment
Hanging by a moment here with You

...boo.
fever's back.