sm sm sm =]

i think loopholes may have been
what officially made my day today <3

i've decided
i'm going to watch the sunset tomorrow.
and might even sit on a yellow bench to do it.
(eff, can you even see the sunset from there?)

or maybe i'll lose track of time?

this may be the first time

in a while

that i've been able to just..

breathe in time

i sleep in, i eat, i read

i play, i read some more

tell stories

and hear lots of them in return

i made curry with the kids today <3

and played apples to apples. =]



it was like having three mini assistants
they helped me peel the potatoes and the carrots

one of my few random wishes while i'm here
is still for a third hand

so when we go to the store, or cross the street,

it'll be easier to hold onto all three of them instead of two of them

rotating over and over to take each other's place on one

andrew has permanent dibs on my left hand

he doesn't seem to like to share but he's still a punk <3

i'll tell him not to let go

or else i'll get super lost and not know where to go

and he'll nod like he's been given a super awesome strict mission

hold on tight

then..

let go D:

for ten seconds

just to watch me flail about

"andrew?! AAGGHH where am i?!?! noo!"

**bumps into shelves and wanders around in circles*

before laughing and grabbing my hand again going

"im right here!!"

oh! and i won the game btw >>
eff letting kids win just cuz they're kids
this is the real world
"apples to apples juniors"
no mercy

so supposedly the green cards at the end describe you?

alex is careful
andrew is quick and playful

ming ming is long and miserable

(ahahaha--and YES, i did SO make fun of her for it

"..but i'm shorter than most the people in my class...;_;"-mm)

and im dainty, harmful, busy, and enjoyable

D:

the word i won with for "harmful" was "girlfriends" btw

just thought i should warn them at an early age =x

..i've never checked a person's blog so much in my life

D: i blame albert. somehow. i just do.

i've been trying to get into proverbs..

it's going a lil slow at first

but i feel like wisdom should be what i'm looking for the most right now

i've finally been able to take some time to read those books for womens ministry stuff that karen virtue sent me..it's taken a while but they're definitely worth the read. =] i get to read em during my lil cousin's hw time right after school, so they do their hw and i get to journal or read a book. (don't tell them but i've secretly been adding +five mins to Andrew's 20 mins of daily reading time a day for the past three days...). they're so patient with me..

i think i've realized that their fave part of the day might be bedtime stories time cuz its like..the one time of day where they can, not only get my full full full attention..but have the spotlight focused completely on them too.

all day its kind of a balance

of equal amounts of hugs,

hand holds,

high fives,

and tasks

conversations

contemplating silly things, little things, big things

things they wonder

things they know

things they want to know

things they already know

but just want a response

to affirm that someone else is listening

then story time comes

and they get their turn to say whatever they want

add in whatever they want

and whatever they choose to say or happen

instantly is real, and permanent

and they've made their mark on something

that's going to be memorable for sure

its tricky..cuz..you have to add in enough to be interesting

but you need to be subtle enough to be upstaged, every time

but out there enough that they're not scared of adding anything too out there

i dunno..im kinda just rambling now

but the point iis..

story time is awesome

these kids are awesome

i'm amazed at the things that come out of their mouths

the things they say, and do

the way they reach out

and the difference from when they're too shy to

to when they know it's okay to

and when they've settled that they wont have to let go

and eventually just refuse to =]

...i can't believe it's exactly 1 week till India

Dern you, Gabe, for pointing it out =x

i have a most recent song obsession

maybe ill make a separate entry about it later

in the middle of my journal is still

directions to elizah's house

or back

also

i gave up counting.

im pretty sure i miscounted

...cuz that felt a zillion times longer than that

..i miss your thoughts

and a lot of things.

...

i almost messaged back.