in other news...

servant team is kind of amazing.

already, these people
are etching a permanent memory
and place for themselves in my heart.

thank you God,
for teaching me to accept help
ask for help
that it's okay
to need help.

for surrounding me with people
who help
SO much
just be being themselves
just be being
exactly
who
you made them to be

thank you, God
that you didn't abandon me
even when i was unreasonable
stubborn
irresponsible


and scared.



it really isn't anything about
pulling something
out of nothing

but realizing

that we HAD nothing
to begin with


we never really had
anything to begin with

all that we have
is all that
we're given

and the moment
we try to
take credit for that
or count those
as something we are
solely responsible
to make happen
out of our own efforts

are the moments where
we put a cap
over the outpour
of God's love

and we're no longer
serving out of
an overflow

but of what we
are scraping and draining
of ourselves

to offer

we are not alone.
the weight of the world
is not on our shoulders
we are known
and deeply loved.
accepted,
and unconditionally
cared for

we'll never
be left alone
or have to be
anymore