a lot of reading lately..

Purity

"Matthew 15: 18-20

Initially we trust in our ignorance, calling it innocence, and next we trust in our innocence calling it purity. Then when we hear these strong statements from our Lord, we shrink back, saying, 'but I never felt any of those awful things in my heart.' We resent what He reveals. Either Jesus is the supreme authority on the human heart, or He is not worth paying any attention to. Am I prepared to trust the penetration of His Word into my heart, or would I prefer to trust my own 'innocent ignorance' ? ...as long as I remain under the false security of my own 'innocence,' I am living in a fool's paradise. If I had never been an openly rude and abusive person, the only reason is my own cowardice couples with the sense of protection I receive from living a civilized life...
The only thing that provides protection is the redemotion of Jesus Christ. If I will simply hand myself over to Him, I will never have to experience the terrible possibilities that lie within my heart.

Purity is something far too deep for me to arrive at naturally...

But when the Holy Spirit comes into me, He brings into the center of my personal life the very Spirit that was exhibited in the life of Jesus Christ, namely, the Holy Spirit, which is absolute unblemished purity."

-My Utmost for His Highest

Justification
"If you think of yourself differently than God thinks of you, who is mistaken, you or God? How often do we allow our minds to overrule what God says is true?"

Emotionally Healthy Relationships
"Healthy relationships are turned outward rather than inward. Healthy relationships encourage individuality rather than conformity and are concerned with independence rather than emotional dependence. Healthy relationships point one's focus to the Lord and pleasing Him rather than toward the friendship and pleasing one another.

How do we know when we've crossed the line from a healthy relationship to one that is emotionally dependent? When either party in the relationship:

• experiences frequent jealousy, possessiveness, and a desire for exclusivity, viewing other people as a threat to the relationship
• prefers to spend time alone with this friend and becomes frustrated when that does not happen
• becomes irrationally angry or depressed when this friend withdraws slightly
• loses interest in friendships other than this one
• experiences romantic or sexual feelings leading to fantasy about this person
• becomes preoccupied by the person's appearance, personality, problems, and interests
• is unwilling to make short-or long-range plans that do not include the other person
• is unable to see the other person's faults realistically
• becomes defensive about this relationship when asked
• displays physical affection beyond what is appropriate for a friendship
• refers frequently to the other in conversation; feels free to "speak for" the other
• exhibits an intimacy and familiarity with this friend that causes others to feel uncomfortable or embarrassed in their presence"

- Search for Significance

Finally finished uploading all the India pics on FB!
Phone date with Michelle soon! =]
oh yeah! i got a random phone call from Matt Wang this morning
as small or random as that was, that seriously made my day so far

i love unexpected phone calls
the less rational or necessary the reason the better!

i miss phone calls just to say hello

dont people still do that?

oh technology/aim/fb keeping us from
as consciously realizing we miss people/
needing to contact them to fix it

i think this was probably why
phonecalls w/ daniel were always so fun

::Edit::

Just had my phone date phone call w/ Micheellleyy-poo

"But but..Hannah..there will be..PEOPLE there!"

"What kind of friend would I be if I let that happen to you?!"

"...Wait a minute, that says JULY."

"I'm..I'm...IM NOT CUT OUT FOR LIIIIFE"
"Yoouup~"

"Wisdom teeth...I'm sorry for your loss, mam."

"It's like I'm sitting here confessing all of my crazies at you."
"And I just sit here and laugh~"

"Or you couuuld..you know..go back to Daaviis..!"

"Sorry, sir, I probably won't talk to you after that.
I'll be too busy talking to people who are, you know...In DAVIS.
..Where you COULD be."

"I'm weaaaak..!"

"Just wasting away, mam. These are the BEST YEARS OF MY LIFE--and I am sitting heeere...waasting awaaayy..~"

"Yeah, I blog more. It's the only thing I have left to talk to."
"...Me too."

"Interaction with people?! Civilization! That just won't do!"

"Hold on a sec, my puppies are trying to eat my toes."
"You probably deserve it <>


"Not that I have any reason, or right, or place to be
. . .
WHYYYYY!!"

"Did you say that to him?"
"No, most of these things kind of just happen in my mind."
"...I see~"

"Hold on a sec--I'm trying to regain composure from senile-Hannah-dying-in-Arizona back to some sort of sensible Hannah who speaks full sentences and feels things in a coherent fashion."

So basically the most amazing like 30-something minutes of my life

PS: Good luck w/ finals =]
PPS: stop reading blogs & focus!

hmm..

Two weeks later...

It's only been two weeks later.

It feels like forever. (?)

And there's still...

so. much. to. do.