opening up

i think
sometimes, even for just a split second
we're given the option
of how important
we want to choose
someone to be in our lives

we choose who to trust
how to open up
how much to open up
and whether we know it or not
have our reasons of why or why not
we chosen to open up to them (or not)

im probably just rambling
but i guess it takes a lot of faith in people too

but there's a kinda funny thing about faith, like what was randomly mentioned in hebrews 11 (it was in the history of biblegateway for some reason...and im gonna take that as enough of a God clue as im gonna get dern it)

It talks about all these people who "by faith" did a lot of things, sacrificed, and trusted, and etc...

but then in the end it goes on to say

" These were all commended for their faith, yet none of them received what had been promised. God had planned something better for us so that only together with us would they be made perfect."
Hebrews 11: 39-40

i dont expect this entry to be very insightful, or thoughtful, or even coherent
or necessarily relevant..

all i really know is that somehow, that verse is what i've been left with

and its kind of a disclaimer that just because we do things by faith
doesn't mean we're gonna get what we want
or that things are gonna end up going our way, or the way we wish they would go
just because we've said the magic words.. that its in His hands

because saying something is in His hands

means letting go of whatever we thought was ours to rightly hold in our own hands
and even some things we missed that we didn't realize we shouldn't have been holding onto to begin with

or who knows,
maybe there was nothing wrong with holding onto it

or what you were holding onto itself

but that doesn't change the fact that it's not something that your own hands
necessarily have the full or more powerful right to hold

because giving it into His hands

means it no longer belongs to You


it needs to completely be not of you
for it to be fully of Him


and we're not necessarily gonna like the answers that come with that
...or that some of the questions that later arise

may not even get answers at all


just the response

a plead

a promise.

"Trust in -Me-"

His voice

should never be overpowered by our own